LMFAO - Shooting Star

   Thank you Meadow, my lovely little sister, for sending me this song! I LOVE IT! Support LMFAO. They are amazing. I love this remix. It's fabulous. Not much more to say about it!

Astonishing..

   After a nice weekend of relaxation and alone time, this week started off good. I had a great Monday morning full of dance, and afternoon full of song. Tuesday I paid for it, however. It was absolutely brutal. Every muscle in my body, particularly my legs, was in agony. I couldn't even touch my toes! But I stretched it out and feel fine now. On Wednesday we gave our first performance of our Shakespearean sonnets. Mine went alright, but he said I wasn't being vulnerable enough. He said I was acting "gangster" about it. That made me chuckle. But after taking his criticism into consideration, I figured out exactly how I will do it for our final performance on November 3. Thursday was a monster day for us first years. First we had our masters mock audition, which I did very well in. Next we had our scene study scene performance, which I also did very well in. Thirdly we had our modern dance mid- term exam, which, like the others, I did well in. And last but not least we had our music theory quiz, which I did sufficient on. All in all, it was a great day of mid- terms, but not for me personally. I'm finding it difficult to adjust to the new scene. Some people have their clicks and some people are loners. I guess this is true anywhere you go, but I definitely feel alone here. All I want to do is focus on my studies and on myself as an artist, and this will hopefully help me through the difficult times. Thursday night was the third years' dress rehearsal for their show "The First Five Years". It was a review of the first five years worth of productions put on at St. Lawrence College. It was very well done. I cannot wait until our "New Faces" show! On Friday we had another anatomy quiz, which I am sure I aced, and then we had dance production. We spent two hours cleaning up our very first production number, and working on the tap section, which I am involved in. Camille wasn't feeling well, so while she was watching, she took these photos of us dancing. I only found three with me in it, however. Apparently, this is the first time they have put a tap number in the New Faces show, so we will be remembered for this! I love tap! ♥


**Beginning Section - I'm in the purple shirt**


**Beginning of Tap Section**


**Middle of Tap Section**

   Friday night was a good night, until the very end. I went to yet another MUTH house party. It was great. I got to sing with Kayla, Toni, and Cleandra, which was amazing! There is some serious talent in this program! I chatted with a bunch of people. Sam and I have decided we are going to celebrate our birthdays together, hopefully, and possibly Sara as well, considering our birthdays are November 21, 22, and 23. Two of us will be celebrating our champagne birthdays, which is super exciting! We talked about stretching and dance. It was great. Thank you to the people who funds my cause - "poor student needs booze"! Hehehe. The night was going great until someone I live close to got really sick. I realized how much I am past the stages of getting really drunk and being sick all the next day. Except for her, she was sick all that night. It scared me, a lot! And it scared some of my friends too! I hope it scared her so bad that she never does that again... jus' sayin'. After the night had come to a close, I went home and crashed out. I was pretty exhausted. This morning I went back to my friends place, ate some pancakes, hung out for a bit, and then drove home. Before I left though, I had a chance to chat with my friend Emma. We have a lot more in common than I had realized. I'm really glad we had that opportunity to chat. ♥


**Black & White Theme**

   Tonight is the big sleepover at Danica and Emma's apartment. We will be watching movies and having girl time. I wont be sleeping over though because my Dad and Patsy are coming down tomorrow! I'm really excited to see them! It has only been a few weeks, but I am excited for them to see my place and for my Dad to change my car door lock, put my pictures up, help me put plastic on the windows, and bring me a light bulb for my lamp! I don't even know if he realizes just how much he has to do tomorrow! LOL! ♥

Current Playlist

Alexis Jordan - Happiness (Dave Audé Remix)
ATB - Could You Believe
Cascada - Pyromania

Dash Berlin - Never Cry Again

Evanescence - Good Enough

Far East Movement - Like A G6 

Kanye West ft. Pusha - Runaway

Markus Schulz - Do You Dream

Michelle Williams - We Break The Dawn (Lost Daze Remix)

Miley Cirus - Who Owns My Heart

Neon Trees - Animal

Rihanna - Only Girl (In The World)

Swedish House Mafia ft. Pharell - One (Your Name)

Usher ft. Jay Z - Hot Tottie

Yolanda Be Cool - We Speak No Americano

Kanye West - Runaway

   Kanye messed up at last year's VMA's, as we all know, and apparently he knows as well. I love this song! Everyone deserves forgiveness. Just look at everything he had been through at that point. To deal with it all, he was drinking. He was drunk when he took the mic from Taylor Swift that night. I think we all just need to let it go. I think his ego finally got what it deserved.

Beyoncé - Listen

Beyonce - Listen



Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but can't complete
Listen to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning to find release

Oh, the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

You should have listened, there is someone here inside
Someone I thought had died so long ago
Oh, I'm screaming out and my dreams'll be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your own all 'cause you won't
Listen

I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried to say what's on mind
You should have known

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start but I will complete

Oh, now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what you made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own, my own

Turkey Day Fun..

   This Turkey Day weekend was great. The drive back to Belleville was good, except I blew a break pad so I grinded every time I hit the breaks. It was annoying, but none the less, I drove Brittany to her Grandparents' home, then drove to Belleville and met up with my friend Hollie. I actually thought I was going to die in the car with her. Much love Hollie, but DAYAM! AHAHAHAHA... good times though! After that I went to Curves and met up with my friend Julie. We hung out at her place for a bit, and that is where I discovered just how much my legs have toned. I thank my ballet teacher for this. Wow, they are almost fully toned. It's crazy! After my time with Julie, I went to my best friend Jessica's place. We spent the night catching up, laughing, and chillin'. I am so happy we are friends again! I spent the night at her place and woke up early in the morning because she had to work at 10am. Her boyfriend drove us to Tim Hortons and then dropped me off at my car, but before I could leave Belleville, I had to stop in to visit with my good friend Ali. I woke her up and chilled with her for about 30 minutes. I wanted to stay for longer but really had to get into town (Picton) to visit my vocal coach.

   When I got into Picton I went straight to Sharon's house. I told her about how school is going, and she helped me with the song I would be singing this week. She then found me two new songs that she thought would suit me well. She photocopied them for me and everything! Thank you Sharon! ♥ . After my visit with Sharon, I went to my father's house. He put my car up on the hoist right away. We stuck with our tradition and got pizza slices for lunch. Once Meadow arrived, we went and picked up Aarron at his friend's place, and then came back to my dad's. Dad and I then went to Canadian Tire to pick up parts for my car and then out to my Uncle's house for a bit to pick up his car and visit. It was really nice to see my Aunt, Uncle, and cousin Brittany. They all said that I have lost a lot of weight since moving. This really is news to me because I never noticed until I came home. After our visit at their house, I picked up Meadow and Aarron and we headed to our Grandmother's house. Mom arrived soon after we got there. It was really nice to see her again. We spent the afternoon chatting and eating. It was a dang good meal: my first of the weekend! After dinner, Meadow, Aarron, and I decided to go to Belleville to meet up with Jess and go bowling. When we got there, we called to check the prices, and neither of us had enough money to go. So we spent the night chilling and catching up some more. It was a great night. We left sometime in the early morning and spent the night at my dad's house. Once again, I only got about 5 hours of sleep. I was exhausted.

   Sunday morning I had to get up and help Dad take the parts back to get the right sized ones. After that I spent the morning reading the package our Program Co-Ordinater had given us on Friday, and practicing my song for Thursday. After a few hours, Meadow and Aarron woke up and we went out to our Grandmother's house again. We spent the afternoon playing our classic card game "Shang- Hi". I left there at 4:30pm and headed for my Aunt's house. Her dinner was amazing, and I ate way too much of it! Mmmmm... squash. After dinner we just chatted about different things and spent time together. I left around 8pm and went back out to my Grandma's house. I only stayed for a little bit because I was falling asleep on my chair. So I left and went back to my father's house to sleep, but first I said my goodbyes to Mom and Aarron. Aarron will be heading out to B.C. soon, so it was important to Meadow and I to see him this weekend. I wish him luck on his trip out. I know he will do something great with his time out there! ♥

   Meadow got dropped off at my Dad's early Monday morning, but we slept for another 3 hours after that. When we woke up, we waited for a little bit and then I said goodbye to my Father and drove out to Meadow's new foster home. It was great to meet her foster parents and family. I ate dinner with them and spent some time with them. They said I am welcome to their home anytime. Her foster parents are actually Ali's Aunt and Uncle... small world. I said goodbye to Meadow around 5pm and headed for Belleville again. I hung out with Julie for about an hour and then when my friend Jen got there, we left for her house. We hung out for like 3 hours. It was good times. I left her place around 9pm and came back to Brockville. I went to bed as soon as I got home. I was exhausted from the longest weekend of my life.

   This week at school has been great. Jazz was fabulous on Tuesday. I am loving our "Jai Ho", Bollywood dance. Acting was great because I finally understood what he was looking for with our sonnets, and I am really getting into his poetry, being a poet myself. Voice and speech was great too because I can finally breathe into my psoaz muscles. I really accredit my roommate Davin for this. She said, "honestly, just open your vajaj, that's what I always do." This really helped me grasp the conecpt, so thank you Davin! ♥ . Thursday's Master class, of course, did not go as I had planned. However, my teacher tought me to use my chest voice, which I had literally never used before, and it came out way louder and more powerful than it had the first time. So I have discovered my chest voice, and plan on using it for musical theatre. Thursday's Modern class was horrible at first. I was getting frustrated with not being able to do the turns and spins properly. I am getting better at them, but they are the hardest part of dance for me. After the turns, I started getting better at the other moves we were doing across the floor, and then I rocked the choreography. It was great. Mid- terms are coming up. I am not really nervous for the majority of them, but I am for History and Anatomy. I guess I just have to study and see what happens. ♥

Kory, MMC, Chiove, Mikenze, Danica **Class Clowns**

Orientation Day

   Orientation Day was amazing! I found my pictures from that day, and I am pretty sure they are somewhat self explanatory! Sumo wrestling, a laundry soap slip n' slide, a condom pool, and a bra & undies potato sack race! To end it off, a huge tug of war between each program. We ALMOST had the fire fighters! Dangitt... ♥

**Sumo Wrestlers** // **Shhhhh ... MMC** // **Kearyn's Sumo Style**

Mikenze & MMC

Emily, Mikenze, & MMC

**Tug of War - You'll Find Me in the Pink Shorts**

Party & Lazy Weekend

   I was just recently searching through my phone only to find photos I had completely forgotten about. There are some from our orientation day and some from Friday night. We had a great time this weekend. Friday night we went to Choivé's apartment to pre drink and chill before the party. I was the DD, so I just hung out. We had a good time, and then left for the party around 11:30pm. When we got there, there were lots of people there, and the majority of them were "shmamalamajammahed" (ahaha Kayla!). We danced for a bit, and chatted. Brittany, you're my hero, just sayin'! Kayla requested that I sing Listen from Dream Girls for her and the others standing in the group. She wanted me to sing it exactly as I had in Masters class that week. So I sang it for her, and they loved it. ♥

   After a few hours, Choivé asked me to take them to the bar. So we went to what is known as "The Dirty Bird" for some dancing and more drinks. We had a great time. Some random creepy guy came up to me and asked me to just wrap my arms around him. It was awkward. Then as we were standing outside to leave, another random, slightly less creepy guy, told me my pants were sexy, "three more slits and I'd be in love." It was great. After the bar I drove Choivé and Danica back to Choivé's apartment, and then went home. It was a great night. ♥

   'Lazy' was the word of the rest of the weekend! I watched the musical movie "Nine", it was good, but it took a lot to continue watching until the end. Fergie's role was well done, however. Sunday night was a night of fun at Mary and Bo's. There were 12 MUTH students there. We watched "Monty Python & The Holy Grail" and ate pizza. It was fun. I left at 9:30pm and was asleep at 11:30pm. The one's who actually slept over didn't get to sleep until 5am. They are crazy! We had ballet and Jazz the next day. I, personally, could never do that! It was a great weekend, all in all. ♥

MMC & Mikenze - **Girls Just Wanna Have Fun**


Davin, MMC, Chiove, & Mikenze - **Back it up, Back it up, 'Cuz my daddy taught me good**


Mikenze & Danica - **Lettin' Loose After a Long Week**


Mikenze & Danica // Mikenze & Davin- **Cam Whores**


Chiove, MMC, Danica // Chiove - **My Car**

Danica, Cydney, Chiove, Mikenze, & Brittany **The Party is Just Beginning**

This Week & BFFs ♥

   This past week has been amazing! Ballet is super hard as usual, but I don't consider myself a ballerina, so I just do what she asks and try my best. Jazz is my favourite right now. I love my one prof's incredible warm- up that is pretty much a work out in itself. It is actually insane. I worked extremely hard on Tuesday and did everything she asked of us, and was I ever tired that night! Wednesday was interesting. We had to perform the "Jabberwocky" poem. I knew it very well, but rushed through it. Then we had to go to a place of anger, and then a place of happiness. It was intense. We ended the day with Choral and Theory. That night I made a new friend, Dominique. We have hung out many times before, but we actually got to talk alone and she is a sweetheart. ♥ Thursday morning was my performance in Masters class. I sang "Listen" from Dream Girls. My first run through was okay, but not as good as I would have liked it. My second time singing i was an incredible experience. My prof made me sit on the piano and go to my own place while singing the song. I have never performed a song like this before, because by the end, the piano was shaking and I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. When I opened my eyes the Prof, the accompanist, and four of my classmates were in tears as well. My prof said that if I were to sing that song exactly like I just did, it would be perfect. I am so proud of that performance! I'm even more happy that I finally got to show my prof my real voice. All in all, Thursday was a great day! Today is Friday and I have to go to school for 30 minutes to do a warm- up. After that I have 2 hours until my anatomy course. I have already finished my project that is due today, so I plan on coming home and chilling. I think I'll watch the musical movie 'Nine" too! Tonight there is another house party, so I may have some more pictures and stories share. ♥

   This week I had the chance to really reconnect with my best friend. We had gone our separate ways for a while, but I miss her, and she misses me. She understands me, and I understand her, like no one else does. I am so glad to be talking to her again. We are best friends for life, for real. We have been through so much together and are still fighting strong. We are both in happier places than where we were before. Even though we an hour and a half apart, we are still gonna be there for each other. I am so happy to call you my best friend Jessica! Love you! ♥